“When I see your smile, and I know it’s not for me, that’s when I miss you”
..we both had such a great time but it was me who has transformed "WE" into "U" and "I". I know everything was done by me but i had not even thought in my dreams that we will break up our relation.i know everything what i did hurt you a lot but i didn't ever thought that you would broke n leave me alone in this world; which we both used to see with 1 heart and holding each others hand.. we both used to be always 1 ..always used to ask each other before going and doing any work..always used to see each other in the same street for our future but suddenly everything changed with time..i couldn't understood him n he couldn't understood me..so, we both decided to walk on our paths alone..!! That time we left each others hand..it was the 2ND worst moment of my life..I didn't thought it ever that once again I will be alone..once again I have to start walking on my own paths..once again I have to start dreaming alone..!! And now once again I stood with broken heart n now I'm walking alone on the empty streets..I wish I could make him realise that everyone in the persons life gives pain whether that's your friends, your family or anyone..but that is you who have to decide that who is important in your life - THE PAIN OR THE PERSON??
If the person decides to stay with pain then he/she can not move on their relation further. but, when the person realize that he/she is the only one who is the reason for him/her to smile then no one separate them from each other..
Nowadays,I just hope that if I wouldn't have utter all those words then he might be walking with me.. but somewhere I think that I did right whatever mistakes I did I just told him as making myself true to our love..that I did a mistake and I am apologising for it..then, it was all upto him whether he wants to stay with me or not and I knew that my words had hurt him a lot and he can not forget that..Then from somewhere I got to knew that he is not happy with me n he doesn't loves me as the way he used too..so, next day I took decision that now I'm not going to interfere in his personal life..I would leave him alone because i knew that i am the big problem in his life..
I'm just missing him like hell..He was meant to be everything in my life..my morning used to start with his morning wish , my day used to get with his talks and my night used to be with his good night greet..!! Wherever I used go and whatever I used to do I always found him walking behind me to look after me..at that time I used to be consider his life..!! I am trying to make myself very strong but it's getting very dificult for me..how could I forget him?? How could I erase my memory?? How could I tell myself that sweetheart now he has gone from your life, you are no more for him..!! He was my reason to smile..
Now, I walk alone on the streets just wishing that I cud turn back time.. now when i go anywhere with my friends I just meet with my beautiful memories..n think that I cud hug him soo tightly and say I love you a lot ..please come back to me..!
